SWANDREAM, by JACK COLWELL

SWANDREAM

by JACK COLWELL

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The carefully crafted debut album by Jack Colwell, Produced by Sarah Blasko. A Story of transformation. "Emotional and mesmerising" - The Guardian.

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A bundle of hopes and dreams, containing:
- A limited signed 12" vinyl of Jack Colwell's debut album, Swandream, on classic black 180g vinyl.
- A white 'Swandream' Gildan t-shirt, designed by Brooklyn-based artist Eric Zindorf.
- A dye-cut Swandream sticker. Gloss finish.
- A letter from Jack Colwell's desk

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A bundle of hopes and dreams, containing:
- A limited signed 12" vinyl of Jack Colwell's debut album, SWANDREAM, on classic black 180g vinyl.
- A white 'SWANDREAN' Gildan t-shirt, designed by Brooklyn-based artist Eric Zindorf.
- A dye-cut SWANDREAM sticker. Gloss finish.
- A letter from Jack Colwell's desk

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1.	Swandream 01:07	lyrics	buy track
One day soon… I’ll wake and be a swan Like when I was a child and danced for my reflection I’ll grow two wings You’ll never see The frightened child that I used to be
2.	In My Dreams 03:30	lyrics	buy track
All my bones are broken Can’t run or hide Give my love to Broadway In case I die tonight Got on a train too early Headin’ way out west A ticket bound for nowhere For Sydney’s biggest pest But if I could I’d run back to you If I could I’d run back to you I’d say the old refrain Everything could be brand new Get down on my knees Be good to you Edgar Allen Poe Rides the 3:49 Quoting “Doth the raven” Along the country line I cut up both my cheeks In the mirror on the Tube Singing along to something I barely know the tune Yellin’ if I could I’d run back to you If I could I’d run back to you I’d sing the old refrain Everything could be brand new If all the clocks would stop I’d run to you And in my dreams we could be brand new And in my dreams, we’re always brand new Woke up hot from sleep One pale September night The pillow sunken empty As I reach towards my right Now I’m far from nowhere With your ghost upon my lips Thinkin’ if all the clocks could stop I’d run to you ‘Cause in my dreams, we could be brand new ‘Cause in my dreams, we’re always brand new
3.	Weak 03:20	lyrics	buy track
You say I’m weak You say I’m small I’ll never be anything but a punchline I’m just a lisp With flailing wrists But if I cut them do I not bleed? Bleed the same blood as you You play it rough And make it tough Expecting me to just take it on the sideline When I get up You push me down Mouthing off in front of the boys Will be boys I know why I make you laugh It’s masking the fear inside you While I’m making you laugh I just know that I’m making you cry too Every little thing I say and I do Behind closed doors Suburban walls Turn off the noise succumb to the silence Privately you long to be Sharing your secrets with me You’d be free I know why I make you laugh It’s masking the fear inside you While I’m making you laugh I just know that I’m making you cry too Every little thing I say and I do Cry too Every little thing I say and I do When we meet again some day I will take you in my arms But for now I understand I am the vessel for your pain You say I’m weak You say I’m small I’ll never be anything but a punchline
4.	Don't Cry Those Tears 03:30	lyrics	buy track
I know the secrets of the heart I know the secrets of the mind If it’s something kinda funny You can’t explain Save my soul Wasting away I know the secrets of the mind Don’t cry those tears Don’t cry those tears Don’t cry those tears till I’m gone Then I’ll cry too And I’ll watch you later in the park Watching other people watching out for people in the dark Well there’s something kinda funny you can’t explain Save my soul Wasting away I know the secrets of the mind Don’t cry those tears Don’t cry those tears Don’t cry those tears till I’m gone Then I’ll cry too Then I’ll cry too I know the riddles of the heart I know that sometimes it gets dark I know the secrets of the mind I know that sometimes it gets blind (I’m lonely, I want you, I need you, come on over) Tears
5.	The Sound of Music 04:22	lyrics	buy track
I will not let your shadow hang over me For I have grown into a cherry blossom tree But I regret the words that were not said We didn’t know you the night we packed and fled From the back seat I saw Red and blue paint the neighbours’ walls But I still love you Dad Even though we made you mad Though the things that you did Made it hard to understand Down at the station Photos against the wall To show the purple that grew beneath my jaw Julie Andrews of T.V. A quiet Christmas Eve But I still love you Dad Even though we made you mad Mum cried watch the T.V. The Sound of Music Do-Re-Mi I will not be afraid of you I have learnt to grow past you Do you remember when you said you were Santa Claus? Right after punching Mum Before you hit the floor At school you were Mr C At home you terrified me But I still love you Dad Even though we made you mad Wonder when you’re alone Do our screams chill you to the bone?
6.	Conversion Therapy 04:54	lyrics	buy track
I need the Devil’s work I need witchcraft I need black magic Or a medicine man Can you tell me how to forget my name? Can you tell me how to forget my name? Give me life Give me freedom I’ve tried everything More than I can stand If my heart is in your hand Will you do what’s right for me? I hear we all need conversion therapy I need the Father’s touch Or my body rots Know my mother wants me To denounce what I’ve done Can you tell me how to be clean again? Can you tell me how to be clean again? Give me life Give me freedom I’ll take anything More than I can stand Now my heart is in your hands Do what’s right for me I hear we all need conversion therapy I hear we all need conversion therapy Look at me now…
7.	I Will Not Change My Ways 02:08	lyrics	buy track
Take my shoes Shave my head March me down the high street I will not break or bend Whip me on a tree Whip me at the stocks Curse me under moonlight I’ll bleed for what I love Lay me down in dust Lay me down in dirt Cover me in scarlet words I will not let them hurt Tar and feather me I will not change my ways When you look into my eyes You will see I’m someone’s son When you stare into my eyes You will see I am your son
8.	Home Again 04:24	lyrics	buy track
Thought I saw you walk by my window Couldn’t see if it was you through the rain There’s a leak up in the roof And some rust around the drains I don’t know, I don’t know How to make my house a home again I don’t know, yes, I don’t know How to make my house a home again So I call out to the distance And it hears me call your name And I hope somewhere in the silence You will hear me You will hear me You will hear me once again You will, Oh You will hear me once again Love can bloom Love can fade Lovers walk and sometimes stray Love can grow And it can hide How I hope our love won’t die Like a rose love needs attention to sustain and shine Oh, I wish I had remembered ‘fore those weeds came pokin’ through Mr Mackenzie comes by Sunday’s and he’s always acting strange He doesn’t know, he doesn’t know How to make my house a home again I don’t know, yes, I don’t know How to make my house a home again So I call out to the distance And it hears me call your name And I hope somewhere in the silence You will hear me You will hear me You will hear me once again You will, Oh You will hear me once again Love can bloom Love can fade Lovers walk and sometimes stray Love can grow And it can hide How I hope our love… And in those moments in the early morning When all of Birmingham is fast asleep I’ll skip-to-lou my darling But there you are, you’ll always be Love can bloom Love can fade Lovers walk and sometimes stray Love can grow And it can hide Now I know our love won’t die Now I know our love won’t die Now I know our love won’t die
9.	PTSD 03:03	lyrics	buy track
There ain’t nothing to see here Just get it out of your head Said, there ain’t nothing to see here Except the scars on my face And my hands And my legs There ain’t nothing to see here Baby’s just fine Said, there ain’t nothing to see here You can’t touch me! P.T.S.D P.T.S.D There ain’t nothing to see here Perfect day for a stroll There ain’t nothing to see here Till its mouth opens up Gunna swallow you whole There ain’t nothing to see here… You can’ touch me! P.T.S.D P.T.S.D P.T.S.D P.T.S.D You better run, you better run, because there’s nowhere to hide Oh, this thing is a monster it’ll eat you alive It’ll huff and it’ll puff and it’ll blow your house down It’ll shit on your face, how will you stand your ground? It’ll rock you, it’ll rock you and your cradle will fall Oh, no one will be saved, it’ll come for us all You better run, you better run, because there’s nowhere to hide Oh, this thing is a monster it’ll eat you alive P.T.S.D P.T.S.D P.T.S.D P.T.S.D
10.	No Mercy 04:00	lyrics	buy track
I’m gunna take back the innocence you took from me ‘Cause when I feel again I’ll point the finger And you’ll be first Oh, there’ll be no mercy ‘Cause what was taken from me Will be returned I’ve plumbed the sea below and surfaced just to face you I’ll shed my skin I’ll teach my body to replace you What do you see when you look at me? What do you see when you look at me? All I am to you is a faggot Just a faggot You tell me to die Say I got no friends Every word that you spurred that I heard Won’t take me down in the end Shut your mouth you’ve made it clear You’re just a simple minded person Full of fear I’ve plumbed the sea below and surfaced just to face you I’ll shed my skin I’ll teach my body to replace you What do you see when you look at me? What do you see when you look at me? All I am to you… Feel the rage Watch me burn Feel the things that I would love to say to you See it come See it go I know the memories they sting but let them burn I’ve plumbed the sea below and surfaced just to face you I’ll shed my skin I’ll teach my body to replace you What do you see when you look at me? What do you see when you look at me? All I am to you is a faggot Just a faggot Now who do you see? Now who do you see?
11.	I Am A Dog 03:15	lyrics	buy track
I bark I bite To keep you up at night I bleed I scratch I hunt, kill, attack When your world explodes When your world explodes I’ll still be here… I fuck I figh t To keep you up at night I shriek I weep I piss on every street When your world explodes When your world explodes I’ll still be here Here
12.	A Spell (ft. Sarah Blasko) 03:10	lyrics	buy track
When the day tucks herself in And night shows her skin Hold on, hold on Hold on, hold on When you’re feeling left behind And time has been unkind Hold on, hold on Hold on, hold on I cast this spell “Somnias!” “Somnias!” “Somnias!” And Dream Dream Dream

credits

released May 29, 2020

SWANDREAM by JACK COLWELL

Produced by Sarah Blasko

Recorded by David Trumpmanis at Oceanic and Applebee St Studios, Sydney

All songs and lyrics written by Jack Colwell

Mixed by Collin Dupuis at Centre For Pleasure Mechanics, Detroit

Mastered by Matt Colton at Metropolis, London

Strings arranged and conducted by Nick Wales

Strings recorded by David Trumpmanis at Electric Ave Studio, assisted and helped by Phil Punch

Additional choral recording of Polyphony Choir by David Trumpmanis in the Petersham Baptist Church, Sydney
Additional recording on track 4 by Chris Rollans at Studio Ripple, Sydney

Musicians

Jack Colwell - Steinway grand piano, keyboards, organ, lead & backing vocals
Sarah Blasko - Backing vocals
Laurence Pike - Drums & percussion, backing vocals
Donny Benét - Bass, double bass
Alyx Dennison - Synths
Samuel Lockwood - Guitars
Veronique Serret - Violin
Benjamin Smith - Violin
Caroline Hopson - Violin
Alex Mitchell - Violin
Rebecca Gill - Violin
Virginia Comerford - Viola
Ella Brinch - Viola
Paul Ghica - Cello
Benjamin Ward - Double Bass
Genevieve Fricker - Backing vocals (track 4)
David Trumpmanis - Backing vocals (track 10)
Polyphony Choir - Backing vocals (track 7)

Cover art and photography by Ben Pexton
Cover layout and design by Traianos Pakioufakis
Illustrations by Jack Colwell

Thank you

To, Laurence, Donny, Trumpy, Nick, Alyx and Sam! You’ve brought it to life - we had so much fun and I couldn’t imagine doing this without you. See you soon at Jaks Kafe.
Dan and Jane Stapleton, and Peter Cane, for all your love, time and assistance! You’re family! Thank you!
The wonderful string players and Polyphony members - such divine moments.
Glen Wolter, Liam Casey, Hayden Woolf, Genevieve Fricker, Daisy Tulley, The Drysdales, Stephanie Convery, Sam Twyford-Moore, Brigid Mullane, Lillian Stuart, Oliver John Cameron, Heather Shannon, Scott Spark, Chris Hawtin, Pim Den Dekker, Wilk, Jenny Valentish, Keppie Coutts, Renae Coles, Anthony Calvert, Sean Teasdale, Ivan Lisyak, Pete Gabrielides, Nataya Bing, Brett Adrien, Owen Pallett, Ella Hooper, and Patrick Wolf - for all the friendly love and advice. Nothing is built without a community of people.
Joe Nankin, Luke ‘Mclean’ Stephenson, Matt Sav, Kylie Coutts, Ben Pexton, Traianos, Eric Zindorf, Todd Fuller and the Bedroom Projects boys - thank you for creating a world for the songs to play in.
Nate Nott at Believe for all your hard work, positivity and support.
Jim Moginie for the use of Oceanic Studios.

And finally a huge, huge thank you to Sarah Blasko for believing in me, nurturing these songs, gathering such a supportive team and helping them grow into the world, and for all our time at Blaskovich Studios!! You’re better than nothing, you’re…something! - My words can’t express my love and gratitude. I love you x

Inside each and every one of us is a swan, waiting to be born. x

Love
Jack x

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